Every morning I sit on the living room floor to get Miss H ready. She always has to stand there and hug me for a few minutes, I guess she likes how I’m down on her level and she loves her morning hugs. Well yesterday morning she had her little head resting on my shoulder, hugging me, and out of nowhere she lifts up her head, gives me a kiss, and lays her head back down. It was the sweetest thing in the whole wide world. My heart melted. She gave me a kiss because she wanted to. Not because I asked for one. She did it on her own, just because she felt like it! How great is that? No matter what happened the rest of the day, it didn’t matter, because Miss H started my day off so wonderfully. She is definitely the light in my life!
I don’t remember if I’ve written about this before(I have a bad memory) but it’s so cute how Miss H plays with her baby doll now. Last night she was putting her pacifier up to the baby’s mouth and making sucky noises, and then she handed me the baby and patted it, telling me to burp it. I burped it, then gave it to her, and she burped it on her little shoulder. And she’s finally figured out you have to put the blanket over the baby to cover it up, not set the baby on the blanket. And then last night she took a fake bite of the golf ball and then gave me a “bite” (she loves to share) and when I was taking my fake bite she smacked her lips making eating noises! Then this morning she shoved her foot in my mouth while I was changing her diaper and smacked her lips and made eating noises. It was so funny. Also last night we were looking at her Feely Bugs book before she went to bed, and I was so tired I was just kind of sitting there as she turned the pages feeling them, and eventually I guess she got irritated that I wasn’t participating because she grabbed my hand and made me feel the bug that feels like Velcro over and over. All these things are so little, other people probably think it’s nothing, but to me they’re everything! They’re absolutely amazing…I don’t know what makes her just all of a sudden learn something new.
I absolutely love how Miss H thinks I’m so funny and she loves to be around me, even though I’m such a boring nerd and I’m a weirdo! I say something stupid and she laughs! I do my little boogie butt shaky dances out of nowhere and she thinks that’s the coolest most funniest thing she’s ever seen! It’s absolutely awesome to have somebody love me so much, no matter what I look like, smell like, no matter how much of a dork I am, or how stupid I’m acting…she thinks I’m amazing and funny and even when I’ve got the worst morning breath she still wants to cuddle and give me kisses. That fat roll on my stomach…wow how cool is that to poke and prod, so funny!! Those grandma-ish pj pants I wear around the house…so fun to point out the little flowers and pull down around mommy’s ankles while she’s standing at the sink(and then w/ the pants down, those hairy legs are awesome to feel and so funny!—I tell her “H that’s called Prickly”). I’ll do anything in front my husband, he knows how silly and nerdy I can be, and he’s silly and nerdy right there with me…but he doesn’t laugh so hard he can’t breathe when I break into a boody dance in the middle of doing dishes at 9:00 at night because I’m so exhausted I’m feeling giddy. I love that H laughs at me and with me, I love that she thinks I’m so wonderful. I remember how that felt when I was so little, to think my mom was the bestest person in the whole wide world…I loved her so much it was ridiculous, I thought she could do no wrong and was beautiful at all times and I wanted to be around her constantly(I still feel that way!). I always hoped my kids would love me like that. And she does, she thinks I’m amazing, and it feels so great to finally have somebody love me JUST because I’m me! And I feel the same about her. That kind of love is amazing!