Monday, January 28, 2008

Hailey's finally had a few good nights as far as her nightmares go which means I'm more rested and in a much better mood than I have been. Thank God for that. Of course the warmer weather we're having could also have something to do with my good mood...too bad it's not supposed to stick around! I have definitely been experiencing the winter blues and cabin fever. Have I mentioned I'm ready for Spring?????

I'm reading the book The Girlfriend's Guide to Toddlers in hopes that it'll help me understand Hailey a bit more. I know I've said this a million times(or at least a few) but all of a sudden I have this kid. She's not a baby anymore at all, besides the fact that she's still wearing diapers. Before when I'd said that it was maybe how I was feeling on that particular day. Now, it's hit me like a ton of bricks. She's a kid. She eats sandwiches and wants to watch particular movies over and over and knows what it means to go to the library and check out books...I can reason with her (sometimes), tell her what we're going to do the next day and God forbid I change the plans because you better believe she remembered and is very upset that we're not doing what I said anymore...she makes her own choices, she talks about her day...she's just a kid, what can I say. I can't explain it. I sort of feel like 'when the hell did this happen??' but at the same time I feel like it's taken forever to get to this point. And just as I was getting so confident in my abilities at mommying a baby, POP she turned into a kid that I have NO IDEA how to parent. So far it seems like I'm doing pretty gosh darned good at the whole bit if I do say so myself. She seems to be coming out okay, if not a wee bit sassy. And what's funny is when she was a baby I read the parenting books and thought "well hell I'm doing that wrong!" And now I read the parenting books for toddlers and I think "well that's nice if it works for others, but that's not how we do it!" Funny how that changed over the last year...

I have my 2nd physical therapy appointment today. Not sure what she's going to do this time. I only got to do my exercises one day this weekend, yesterday. I really have to be more diligent about that...

2 comments:

Kayce said...

I know how you feel to look at your baby and suddenly realize s/he's a little kid. It's disconcerting, isn't it? And you want your baby back, but you don't want to give up this cool kid you've just discovered either.

I'm glad Hailey's nightmares seem to be getting better. I'm not looking forward to that phase (which I'm sure will happen the night after BabyN decides to start sleeping through the night...lol).

Erin said...

I love those books, because they are blunt and to the point, just like your girlfriend would tell you!