Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Please God, I'm begging

Last night before I laid down to try and get to sleep I prayed to God to PLEASE let Hailey and I sleep through the night soundly and wake up well rested the next morning. Maybe God works in a different time zone or something, but where we are 3:00 am is NOT the morning. :o(

I don't know if I mentioned it, and I'm too busy/tired/lazy to go back and look...our friend A forgot and let Hailey watch Monsters Inc. last Monday when he was watching her for us while our sitter was on maternity leave. I prayed and prayed that it wouldn't have the same affect on her as it did all those months ago, but my prayers were not answered and she has not only been waking up every single night since then, she's also been scared of monsters during the day. Even if we're sitting at the dinner table...the other night she started shaking and wanting down out of her seat really bad during dinner and when I asked her what was wrong she said a monster was coming to get her. It was the cat under the table. One day I caught her looking behind the couch. She whispered that she was looking for monsters. I am SO SO SO tired. I feel like I have a baby at home that doesn't sleep through the night yet. When she wakes up varies but it's always between 12:30 and 3:30. I'm always in her room for at least an hour in a half, usually a lot longer. One night she woke up at 12:30 and I didn't get to leave her room til my alarm went off at 5:50. I am to the point where I'm having trouble just functioning and getting through the day.

And now add to all that the fact that my husband is now home from his week-long trip to Florida which means I'm not sleeping well anyway.

My night last night went like this...

~FINALLY fell asleep about 12:30...it's the weirdest thing, I'm so exhausted and then I go to lay down and my mind just races and I can't get to sleep. I've had issues with this all my life but since I've had Hailey it's pretty much stopped, it just comes and goes once in a while. Lovely that it's back right now when she's having sleep issues as well. Makes things that much worse.

~Tossed and turned and woke up a bunch because my husband was snoring or breathing in my face or had stolen the covers or I was hot...

~Hailey woke up crying for me at 3:00. I went pee and told her to climb back into bed. I half sat half layed at the end of her bed til about an hour later I fell asleep. An hour after that at 5:00 I woke up, my neck KILLING me and went to go lay back in my own soft comfy bed, only to find a room sucked of all the oxygen and a husband lying in bed snoring so loudly I could hear him across the house. Bye comfy bed, hello hard cold couch. I slept on the couch for another 50 minutes, my alarm going off every 10 minutes. Then I got up to face yet another day in a fog.

Some nights have been way worse than this, where I just start falling asleep and drooling on my pillow at 12:20 and she wakes up at 12:30 and I'm stuck in her room until my alarm goes off at 5:50 (last week...now my alarm goes off at 5:15 since I have to get her to the sitters again).

God please, if you're listening...PLEASE let us get a good, full-night's sleep tonight. I don't think I can go on much longer without it. I mean it's only Tuesday...I have the rest of the week to get through.

1 comment:

Joanna said...

Sorry to hear about your sleep problems...And poor Hailey!! Kelsie is not afraid of monsters but ghosts, indeed. Be careful around Scooby Doo. It can be a doozy for this age. If you are at your wits end and need some sleep have you thought about just kicking hubby out and you and Hailey sleeping in your bed?? Only for a couple of nights and it may help. Also I read this a looong time ago somewhere....Monster spray...You take a spritz bottle with some water and you spray it around the room and whereever and it keeps the monsters away. Or you can keep telling her they aren't real. Of course this isn't working with the ghosts, so which ever is good for you. It's just a couple of thoughts and hopefully it will get worked out soon!!